Maureen Agatha's Dash

This is the day. I feel it in my gut. Thisbisvthecday everything changes.

ITS Monday already. WOW. Almost a week since mom's funeral.  DAVE TOOK ME OUT FOR A SUNDAY DRIVE IN THE SNOW YESTERDAY. So I have photos to go through. Lots of them. The funeral and yesterday. But two important trips I have to still publish THE last Ireland and my 10 say Leap if Faith trip. Also on my mind are finishing projects. Faiths stocking Colleens truck and a braided rug. I want to fix Michael quilt and Crystas quilt. I want to work on my braided rug. I have thank you letters to write and boxes of stuff to mail out.and...I want to tell Mom's story.

I started looking through mom's things yesterday and found a bag of stuff I could donate to Goodwill.  When I got to Goodwill the donation area was closed.  So I didn't donate. I went inside and got some willow tree figurines fir Crysta and Faith. I got a few more things too. Then Colleen called asking me to save mom's clothes to make dolls. Colleen also said her horse Sweetness died.

Last Saturday Shane and Jess collected rocks with me at Rye cove to give away at moms funeral. It's where she used to go to collect rocks.

Divorce papers

After mom's funeral Dave got dinner for me Colleen Ron and Shirl

I tried to start mom's blog but I was locked out of my Google account this am.  Don't feel motivated to work today but you gotta do what you gotta do.

Tax reulturn came back so Dave said he had to go to Manchester to pick up an antenna.  He drove to Hunts parking lot instead. A camera shop.  He got me a D500 extra battery and charger, flash, case, strap.  It was really quite the surprise and can't wait to figure it our. He almost had me in tears. On the way home he stopped by a lake and I got some pictures of ducks.  We also tried to get it to automatically upload to phone buy couldn't figure that part out in a parking lot. We then went home. Hebputva new battery in truck but it's still not working right. We went to st Josephs mass at 4pm. I brought home a book with the mass and songs in it to be familiar for my meeting with Father David on Tuesday. When I got home I got a call from Shane that Faith was upset with him and a call from Faith about Shane. They both live each other. They are both grieving. Sobits hard fir one to comfort the other and its easy to throw anger and frustration at each other. With Faith we started

Dave bought me a new camera today

AUNT Shirley has been put into a nursing home. She fell into a bath tub and was there 15 hours before helped. Weakness couldn't get out. THERESA her daughter, is still in the hospital due to an injury to colon from surgery. Has to have another surgery in May.

Michael needed my divorce date so chris could get social security. According to an email I sent my brother Charlie I received my divorce papers October 31 2009.

Last night Shane called me because his vehicle broke down. I couldn't help him because Dave had the car. I called Crysta who said she would text him. I didn't hear back from him so I texted Crysta and she said he called Chrissy. He never came home. Dave took me to LA Corona when he came home. I ordered Pacifico Chimichanaga which I've never had but it was delicious. A shrimp scallop crab fried tortilla. I think.

Top one is card mom made for Shane. Bottom one is a card I painted ladt nught with the paints i took out of Moms room.

I still wake up to Mom saying that. She never wanted to be forgotten. So I will try to tell her story. I will try to write it. And like her I will probably repeat myself and tell some of those stories over and over again. Yesterday I went through a blue binder she had full of things she taught michael and she wrote a note for me to give muchael. I'm going to photo copy or scan first! She had him making baskets fro. Grapevines and teaching Jack knife safety! Painting with bluing. Pokeberry dye!  I really should get on her story. Yesterday a box went out to Colleen of things she bought mom. A rosary from Ireland. A butterfly. The fairies she bought for a fairy garden. A set of pajamas mom wore that she bought. A hat. As I go through stuff it's painful but I want to share her! Mom painted cards for Faith and Donny I plan on sending to Faith today

I started to clean the kitchen. I made chili. I started to sew David's green jacket when he texted me the truck broke down. He had it towed to 61 M ain't st Sandown and i picked him up.. Fuel Pump. 

I sent an email to the secretary Jackie at St Joe's but she hasn't responded. I just need to know if I can have the funeral there on 2/21. Tonight I saw a painted sunset. Yhe kind mom would have painted. Mom always said to catch my moments so I went outside in my slippe4s in the mud for this

Today I groaned when I went to get up. Dave said what's wrong I said nothing because he says all I do is complain. I said my hip hurt. So he said I was always lying to him. Nice way to start the day

I'm going to start documenting the negative things David orcanyonevelse says to me. Today I'm bad at packing groceries at Aldis which Dave so announced as I was trying to do it in front of everyone. After I snapped at h8m he apologized but you can't take it back. Apologize to the other 6 or 7 people that heard it 

I went through some of moms things and I'm putting a box together for Colleen. Dave took me to Strafford farms for linch.

I decided to work yesterday. Shane did too. We both regretted it.  I did it to save earned time for when I needed off. I received an obit from Peaslee Funeral home that was awful so I emailed the one we did back to them in the hopes they can use it. I hope to settle that today and call the music director at the church. Shane wants Country Roads by John Denver to be played somewhere. I feel bad that I didn't record more of Mom singing. We sang together a lot. Colleen has a couple from the past couple visits she has been here. Work. Well it went OK. I didn't want to be there and it was hard to focus. John Benedetto checked in on me which was nice. I have no idea how many people will show up for Mom's funeral but I'm guessing 30. Even if no onecshos up its what she wanted. Colleen and I had a discussion about whether or not to put Chris Dittmar Sammy Ronda and Chelsey in obituary. My feeling is mom loved them and they were a part of this family. But I don't want to bri