it's not all roses

Dave yelled at me because Shane smoked in the car. Aldo that I gave him $5 to get cigarettes.

Not just that he yelled but what he said.

HIS car. HiS gas.

What dies he have to do di stop letting me use it?

After he yelled that I really didn't hear anything else and I didn't yell back.

I didnt say anything.

More than ever, it wanted me to ho buy a shitbox of a car to do whatever the he'll I wanted to do with it. I don't even want to ride in his car anymore. 

That's my rant.

I went up to the art room and wrote some Christmas cards.

The lights and my favorite surroundings always make me feel better.

Dave came up and apologized.

My heart didn't heal.

I just can't unhear the words.